Intro

WHY AM I HERE?
(Lawless)

Jesse to God
Oh, tell me my Lord
Why am I here?
Lost in all our pain and sorrow
Are we to live in pain and fear?
Oh, tell me my Lord
Why am I here?

WISHING WELL
(Lawless)

Jesse to Self
There’s place where I’m
Oh, with sorrowed lives
And all the souls
Oh, they're wishing they could die

Take me down
And drown this the orphan forever
Ya know I do
Wish away the pain
And wash away my life

Find me down inside a shallow pool
Down the wishing well
No more bleeding
No more screaming tonight

Wash away my pain
Oh, in the well of sighs
For I have no face
Abandoned for all, for all time

Jesse thinking of his Mother
Why am I nothing
Oh, mamma why’d you leave me
A throw away for life

Oh, why am I nothing
Oh, and mamma why
Can you feel me here
Oh, God I wanna die

SISTER SADIE (AND THE BLACK HABITS)
(Lawless)

Sister Sadie to Jesse
Strip off your things
And bow to your queen
And cleanse the sins of your life
Get on your knees 
Gonna beg and bleed 
No one hears you - you belong to me

Reaper of your sorrow's seed
Black habits tonight 
Your only sin
Was coming into Sadie's life

Jesse to Sister Sadie
Sister Of No Mercy please
I'm praying to die
Can I cleanse my orphan sin
And save my soul tonight

When I don't believe
In a God of Love
I won't deceive
I don't conceive at all

I don't believe
In a God above
I don't believe
I won't receive no more

Sister Sadie to Jesse
What I do to thee
Is what was done to me
Sins of the fathers lives
And do you feel
There's a God for real
Ooh, your only God is me

I'm fucked for life
The cries of night for all Sadie's needs
I'm fucked for life
I'm the child nobody sees

Sister Sadie to Jesse
Oh, you, I'll make you think you're dying
This room cleansing time again
I'll take you to this House of Sorrows
I'll break your Neon Heart of sin

Jesse to Sister Sadie
Oh, are you mad
I'm going fast
Habits in black
No coming back

No Mercy Me
This Hell is real
Why me ya see
She's here killing me

THE RISE
(Lawless)

Jesse to the Invisible Circus
Welcome to my world
To my kingdom of make believe
I’m your new Messiah
You’ll worship at my feet

Welcome Kingdom Come
To disciples that I preach
Will ya, bow down before me
And will you remember me?

Invisible Circus
Dying for you

Jesse
Will I lie to thousands?

Invisible Circus
Our God is you

Jesse
Am I deceit?

Invisible Circus
Falling for you

Jesse
I am the God man

Invisible Circus
Our God is you

Jesse
You’re all at my feet

Jesse to the Invisible Circus
Take me
Change me
Love me
A crown of thorns on my heart

Change me
Save me
Will you love me
Forever nailed to your cross?

WHY AM I NOTHING?
(Lawless)

Jesse to God
Why am I nothing, no more
Oh, why was I never
One worthy of Love 
Oh, why am I nothing to you
Tell me why, was I ever
Born in this World, here at all
Tell me why

ASYLUM #9
(Lawless)

Doctor "D" to Jesse
Are you insane?
Welcome to the Asylum
House of true enchanted minds
It’s the happiest place on earth
For the violent
We almost lost ya
But we caught ya in time

The Nurses
You’re here for life 

Doctor "D"
I’ll fix ya right

The Nurses
Gimme your life

Doctor "D"
It’s all you gotta do 

The Nurses
I’ll give you life

Doctor "D"
I’ll make it right

The Nurses
You’re here for life

Doctor "D"
I wanna welcome you  

Doctor "D" to Jesse
Are you in pain
Or just merely misguided?
Tell me of the demons you’ve inside
I’ll shrink where you think
Till you’re fears are subsiding
I’m your physician slash
Magician of minds  

The Nurses
Asylum # 9

Doctor "D"
Oh, no running away
There ain’t no place to hide

The Nurses
Asylum # 9

Doctor "D"
Oh, I’m your physician
With a mission in mind
Oh, I’m your healer
I’m your stealer of minds

RED ROOM OF THE RISING SUN
(Lawless)

BIlly to Jesse
We are the lost of timeless  
Hazes never found
We walk the new rays of the rising sun
In here’s a heaven where no pain is found

Jesse to Billy
Take away the pain of life for me
Take me where I’m numb
Take me tripping to the light I see
With magic colors of the rising sun

BIlly to Jesse
In here are the doors of blindness
Trails of rainbows around
Lost asylums of forgotten sons
Will you rise up will you touch your God

The sky’s slip into the rising seas
And drown your Neon One
Come touch the faces of the Gods you seek
In the Red Room of the Rising Sun

Jesse to Billy
Is there love to save me
Or just illusion
Is there none to claim me
Just delusion

BIlly to Jesse
Open the doors to your mind
And hide in your dreams
The Red Room is laughing
The Red Sun is happy

Close the holes here inside
Don’t believe all you think
The Red Room is crying
The Red Sun is rising

Hold on, hold on
Touch the faces of God and roll on
Into the Red Room
And free your Neon One

Hold on, can you roll on
Fly the haze’s along
Into the Rising Sun
And feel your Neon love

Hold on, can you hold on
Oh, can you feel it shining
See it rising with the sun

Hold on, can you hold on
Oh, can you feel shining
See it rising with this love

WHAT I'LL NEVER FIND
(Lawless)

BIlly to Jesse
Time to go away
Down a road I cannot hide
Will I have no name
For destiny’s I cannot find

Will I wander alone
Forever’s lonely road of time
Am I looking for
What I’ll never find

Can you hear me
Can you hear me in the night
Will you feel me
If you leave me will I cry?
Can you hear me
Can you feel me say goodbye

Did you call my name
I will be leaving from this dream
Can you feel the pain
Slowly leaving me

Will you hold my hand
And ease me to the other side
Am I looking for
What I'll never find

SOMEONE TO LOVE ME
(Lawless)

Jesse
Oh, all I need was someone to love me
Oh, all I needed was one
There's no one who cares

X.T.C. Riders
(Lawless)

Judah to Jesse
You’ll be so far out of control
You’ll be out of your mind
You’ll feel nothing, it’s taking a hold of you
Won’t ya leave all your pain behind

X.T.C. Riders
Riders out of control
Get you higher
  Oh, yeah
X.T.C. Riders
Ain’t never going home
Oh, just let it ride

You’ll feel my X is taking control
You’ll be numb and blind
Come kneel and pray for me, for a little while
To the Neon God that’s in your mind

Jesse
Me and the Devil

THE RUNNING MAN
(Lawless)

Judah to Jesse
You’ll be so far out of control
You know, the ones you saved

Jesse to Judah
Look in my eye cause somehow
You don’t realize what I made

Judah to Jesse
You can’t run away from me
Don’t deny your blind believers
And hide your Devil's keeper

Jesse to Judah
Take your love away from me
Cause I will blind your heathen reason
And ride us on your broken wings for love

Judah to Jesse
True we are disciples lost
You know the promise you made
Look in my eyes and tell me why
You realize the price that you’ll pay?

Jesse
# 9, # 9, # 9
I’m still inside of
The nine asylums
Am I Messiah? 

Judah to Jesse
You’re the only God they know

What are you running from
Wasn’t this enough
Aren’t you satisfied?
They’re all at your feet
The Lord to sheep
Oh, are you sanctified?

RAGING STORM
(Lawless)

Jesse to God
A storm is come
One war of sun and rain
Within me a raging storm

Lost crossroads thundering
In the wind dark and son
Who’s the only one
To lay claim of me
Altars of store
Righteous temptations
Here at my feet

Give me love
To rage in me can you see?
Only love is saving me
Give me love
That rage in me

It rages on
Of mourn and memories
In the wind
A warring storm

My soul is bargaining
In the end is there no sun?
With only love in vain and it’s pain
Hear me, oh, Lord
Cleanse me evermore with
Your blood of rain

Holy war for my soul
Scares of memories remain
Oh, tell me why am I here
Storms of crossroads are rage

Originally released on Noise / Sanctuary, April 20, 2004